Eating hEaThLy STINKS!!

Well Howdy! I have been gone for a long time...I guess I just haven't had much to say...or don't think to blog about it if I do. So, I trying to eat healthier (I am NOT calling this a diet because I DESPERATELY want it to be a lifestyle and not a life long dieting battle) because my pants are fitting a bit tighter and I don't like it one bit. Plus I have someone special (not mentioning who for their privacy) in my life that is needing to eat healthy for more immediate health concerns and so I am trying my best to be supportive and bettering myself in the process as well. So anyways I am a VERY picky eater and totally love meat, cheese, potatoes, and any other sort of carb imaginable as well...those items do not result in a very healthy diet. So I have decided to try and reduce my carb intake, eat only 3 meals and 3 snacks a day, and try to eat well rounded meals and snacks. I started this on Wednesday officially I guess. I was talking to a good friend of mine and I was trying to think of how I was gonna conquer the evil of junk food and he suggested setting a small goal first...like not eating junk food until Sunday and then going from there. For the clarification purposes..Junk food is candy, chips, desserts, and pop (which thankful I rarely drink). This plan is working in that making it to Sunday sounds manageable but at times I just want everything under the sun like...Cinnamon Rolls, Dorritos, Chocolate, etc. I have great people in my life that I can complain to about my cravings and they will encourage me that I CAN do it!!!! Thanks! :) I have been making meals and freezing them for quite sometime and that seems to work well it just the eating in between my meals and late night boredom eating. Also, I make a lot of meals but when you don't like many foods, like me, it is very hard to make well rounded meals. My meals tend to be heavy in fat or choloesterol or carbs or all of the above...NOT GOOD! I did shop online the other day for a few reasons...1. so that I wouldn't "hunger shop" my whole life savings away..haha 2. because I wanted to be able to plan meals with items I had. This seems to be working well. PLUS....I don't to haul groceries out in the cold (although that would be exercise). Anyways that is enough blabbing about this topic! Any thoughts about eating healthy or picky eating or about meals that can be made in crockpot well and/or that freeze well...please leave me a msg it would be greatly appreciated!

On-Call!

I put on call tonight..YAY...I planned to clean my disasterous spare room!! But instead I got called in and had a crazy horrible night and I got so mad at myself and everyone kept saying it is ok and it just wouldn't make it better! Then I had noone to call and cry about it and came home to find out some plans had been changed (Newsflash: I HATE changes!) and a rejection letter for yet another job back home!!! Seriously, this is ridiculous...I just need to go to bed and wake up to a new day but I can't because I have to clean my house and shower and yada yada yada...UGH! Anyways...2 more days of work and then time to relax! Sounds good to me! Off to get my work done so I can get some sleep! Uffda I think my entries get shorter everyday!

27 Dresses!!!!

Finally not working nights tonight...instead eating pizza and watching 27 Dresses!! Such a great movie and a great night to just veg after all in the past 2 days I have been extra productive. I ran errands all over town today, wrote out my menus for the next 2 months and went shopping for all my household things and TONS of groceries, and on top of that I cleaned my whole house! Speaking of household items I have been in Bismarck for almost 5 months and have only bought toilet paper and paper towel once...oh the life a single person that goes back to GF every chance she gets...HaHa!! (Sorry that was just a random fact for ya!) Anyways, still hoping a job back home in GF but until that I am just counting the days until Jared is coming to visit for 5 whole days...so excited!! We have pretty much no plans for when he gets here which is fine with me cause we can veg, watch movies, bake cookies, go car shopping, make each other breakfast, or none of the above just as long as we get to do it together...So ExCiTeD!!! :)

Uffda!!

Uffda!!! That is all I can say right now....I have felt on the verge of tears all night!!! I can't explain...I think it is a combination of some struggles with being out here, lack of sleep, being frustrated with myself, and feeling pulled in 900 directions at once! At this point I just want to go home and crawl in my bed with my heating pad and my snuggly blankets! This entry is not really worth reading because I am only venting and don't really have much to say I guess. I have been working on a menu for the next 2 months but now that I look back at it, it doesn't look real healthy and I need to be working on that...I feel like I am gaining weight faster than I blink! I also played some old school Nintendo at work tonight...LOVED it!! I have been reading a book called "Barefoot" by Elin Hildebrand and it is pretty good! This is just a random collection of thoughts at this point...I am trying to get some things down in writing so I don't have to think about them so much! I am out...soon to hit my pillow for a loooong time!!!

Positive Personality

I took this personality test cause I was bored working nights and I found it quite positive! I do believe most of this is accurate in regards to me but I also think it probably leaves out a fair amount of the "negatives"...like under meticulous....you could proly also say "controlling" because I like things done a certain way and many times that means "my" way! HaHa! If you feel like doing this for yourself you can find it on Facebook at: http://www.facebook.com/search/?ref=search&q=personality%20patterns&init=quick#/apps/application.php?id=18315892806&ref=search&sid=29411223.4108082814..1 I don't really know what else to talk about tonight because I am exhausted from this string of nights...only one more left after tonight!!! So I am off to try and find something to keep me occupied for the next 2 hr and 45 minutes (but who is counting)!! :) Passionate You are in touch with your emotions, and sometimes you react before you think. The good news: you don't tamp down your feelings. The bad news: you sometimes say or do things that you later wish you could take back. You do not live your life on an even keel; you do not go for long periods without experiencing some mood swings. Conscientious You feel it's important to work according to a plan and finish every task, to do things correctly and thoroughly. You are not the kind of person who abandons a project before finishing it, or slacks off when you've lost interest. Curious You like to get to the bottom of things. You're not content knowing what someone did; you want to know why they did it. You don't simply take things as they are and move on; you're not content skimming along on the surface; you don't feel you're wasting time by digging for the meaning of things. Assertive You behave in a confident and forceful manner, take charge of the situation, raise your hand in class, stand up for what you think is right, and lead others. Among those who have a high score on the "assertive" trait, many have jobs in which they are valued for their organizational skills as well as their talent for supervising others. You are not interested in fading into the woodwork, leaving everything to fate, taking more time than necessary to accomplish a task, or avoiding confrontation. Warm You have a genuine interest in other people. You're a natural host, and are always thinking about how you can increase the happiness of those around you. When friends have problems or are in trouble, you're usually the first person they turn to for aid and comfort. Scoring high on the "warm" trait suggests that you are among those who enjoy domestic activities — doing things around the house — and are enthusiastic about charitable work, helping others, and making the world a better place. You don't always say exactly what you're thinking; you don't like the idea of causing anyone pain because of your criticism. Tender You are gentle with others, both physically and emotionally. You are careful not to upset people and go out of your way to find the nicest way to say something. You naturally focus on the fact that the world is full of wonderful people, places, and things. More often than not, people with a high score on the "tender" trait enjoy spending time with children, love romantic movies, and are enthusiastic about making the world a better place. You don't think of yourself as tough-minded or gruff, nor do you need to be seen as some kind of objective source of truth and rationality. Organized You like to think a task through before you embark on it. If it's the slightest bit complicated, you make a list (even if it's only in your mind) and methodically work your way through it. When you have a goal in mind, you're not satisfied until you reach it. You are not one of those people who ignore the details, and you don't understand how anyone can get anything accomplished without thoughtful planning ahead of time. Emotional You let it all hang out, and those around you always know what you're going through. You are not isolated from your emotions; no one would call you "cold-blooded," or even "cool as a cucumber." Sympathetic You have a knack for knowing what's going on in the hearts and minds of those around you, without their having to tell you explicitly. People tend to turn to you with their problems because they know you care, and that you will likely offer good advice and a helping hand. You do not feel that people with sad stories are just looking for attention, or have brought their problems upon themselves. Meticulous You tend to want everything you touch to be just right. You can spot errors, omissions, shoddy work, or bad taste from a mile away. You demand a lot of yourself, and you often hold others to the same standards. You don't want to be one of those people who couldn't care less about doing a job well, and you don't think it helps to apologize for the sloppiness of others or cut them a lot of slack.

A Plethora of Tangential Thoughts

So as most people that have known me for more than 5 minutes can tell you....I think a LOT...TOO MUCH usually but I think when I work nights I think even more. I have thoughts that run in every direction as this post proly will be testimony too! I will tell you that tonight I have a billion things on my mind but one of them is foster care and you might say what does a 23 yo unmarried female have to do with foster care? Well, I have always had a desire in my heart to do foster care and I recently found out you can do it even if you are unmarried so this stirred the burning desire in my heart for it. But, after thinking about it more I started to feel like it is not exactly what I should be doing at this time. I enjoy my freedom to run to Walmart anytime of the day and not bring anything but my keys and credit card with me and I enjoy being able to go home for the weekend and spend time running around with Jared or just laying around watching football and eating too many unhealthy foods. All these freedoms would be "modified" if I chose to do foster care. I think at this point I would be capable of handling the situations but eventually I would feel frustrated by it so it would be better to invest my heart into something else. I have not decided what exaclty that might be. I also have discovered that when examing my life and how much I enjoy my freedom I need to take full advantage of it while I can. Don't get me wrong...I want nothing more in life than to be a wife and mom and have billions of diapers to change and cupcakes to make but that is not where God has placed me in my life at this very second so I guess now is the time to celebrate what He has blessed me with at this time which include: a good paying job, a car that works (and will get me back to GF), a family that loves and misses me, sweet friends, a wonderful, loving boyfriend, a warm place to live and bed to sleep in, and soooo much more!!! I apoligize for the crazy bouncing around effect in this entry but I guess as I would chart this at work "Pt has tangential speech/thoughts"....just all over the map!!! HaHa!! Until next time! :)

Happy New Year: Planning to NOT Plan!!!

So it is New Year's Eve (Well I guess New Years now) and I am working over nights. I have considered a blog for some time now but never really knew what I would talk about so I apologize if this is boring or lacks FaBuLoSiTy (I guess that would be false advertising! HaHa)! I don't usually have a definite New Year's resolution but this year I never even considered and it really didn't cross my mind. I feel like 2010 is going to be BIG and eXcItInG and full of Blessings so I am just going to jump in and deal with the highs and lows as they come. I am a HUGE planner and not a huge fan of change by any means...once I have a plan I will do anything to make sure that plan turns out as PLANNED...my family and boyfriend will agree with this fact. So, I guess even though I said I had no New Year's resolution it turns out I kind of do! I know that I will not be able to give it up my planning all together but I want to avoid missing out on oppurtunities and such because it is not in my PLAN so I will being do my best to relaxing a bit about somethings and become a bit more flexible...I can't make any promises because as I am writing this I am already thinking of ways to "plan" this resolution of "decreased PLANNING"...HaHa!! Anyways, I am out for now!! Ps. I think this blog could be fun because I always have so much on my mind...I can use this as my outlet! YAY! Happy New Year!!! :)