On-Call!

I put on call tonight..YAY...I planned to clean my disasterous spare room!! But instead I got called in and had a crazy horrible night and I got so mad at myself and everyone kept saying it is ok and it just wouldn't make it better! Then I had noone to call and cry about it and came home to find out some plans had been changed (Newsflash: I HATE changes!) and a rejection letter for yet another job back home!!! Seriously, this is ridiculous...I just need to go to bed and wake up to a new day but I can't because I have to clean my house and shower and yada yada yada...UGH! Anyways...2 more days of work and then time to relax! Sounds good to me! Off to get my work done so I can get some sleep! Uffda I think my entries get shorter everyday!

Uffda!!

Uffda!!! That is all I can say right now....I have felt on the verge of tears all night!!! I can't explain...I think it is a combination of some struggles with being out here, lack of sleep, being frustrated with myself, and feeling pulled in 900 directions at once! At this point I just want to go home and crawl in my bed with my heating pad and my snuggly blankets! This entry is not really worth reading because I am only venting and don't really have much to say I guess. I have been working on a menu for the next 2 months but now that I look back at it, it doesn't look real healthy and I need to be working on that...I feel like I am gaining weight faster than I blink! I also played some old school Nintendo at work tonight...LOVED it!! I have been reading a book called "Barefoot" by Elin Hildebrand and it is pretty good! This is just a random collection of thoughts at this point...I am trying to get some things down in writing so I don't have to think about them so much! I am out...soon to hit my pillow for a loooong time!!!